losing hope.

i must be one of the "free-est" sick pple arnd who updates her blog every few hours when she shld be resting .. but wells .. i have been resting the whole day and had my 2nd dosage of medicine just minutes ago .. so the drowsy spell shld be setting in soon ..

anyway randomly .. i need to get a better pillow .. the goose feather pillow simply SUCKS. i can wake up getting muscle aches at my shoulders and it's bad .. tsktsk no thanks to my ingenious mother who thinks that goose feather pillow are good cuz hotels use them .. but in fact the long term usage can cause pple to have aches all arnd cuz ur head sinks with the pillow ..

sighs. too many things had been running through my head while i rest .. i've been getting strange dreams and thoughts and i hope they dont come true. ):

for the 2nd time within 3 days i feel the sense of disappointment .. sighs.
i shld learn not to expect so much and be contented with what i have.