my long updates.

saved as draft since 17th apr.

it's like ages since i did a proper update ..
for now, i shall start with where i left till the start of baoc.

3rd apr : tuesday ..

woke up late .. out of house late .. yishi was late too .. but earlier than me laa !! .. suppose to meet at 12.30 .. but ended up meeting close to 1 .. it started pouring while i walked to heeren .. and there was this nice girl who sheltered me with her umbrella across the road (: .. we had lunch at sakae .. couldn't really decide what to eat .. somehow we were like quite full after 5-6 plates each ..

walked to fareast cuz darling yishi wanted to get her brows done .. waited for her and we went isetan .. bought tiramisu at tcc .. but we didnt stay there to eat cuz we were quite full and i had to go school .. was at the supermarket getting her fresh milk + some snack .. took bus back and alighted at kap stop .. some minor accident happened while going down ..

took bus to school and met up with meiling and the rest .. helped to paint the sides .. we were painting boxes too .. in the end washed up and left arnd 7plus ..

4th apr : wednesday ..

went to school at arnd 12 .. met meiling and we painted boxes .. my white shorts become black laa .. super sad .. we had to move the boxes away when a teacher's car was parked directly in our way .. peilin came and helped us paint too .. went for lunch with amy, meiling and peilin . dionne pangseh us!! .. continued to paint boxes and went down to paint the sides after we were done cuz we didnt have enough black paint ..

after kevin came back from buying paint .. we continued to paint the boxes outside the exam hall .. was throwing boxes in from the window .. audris dabao-ed dinner for us .. by the time we were done it was like 10plus alrr .. went back with vy and harjeet .. pl's dad gave us a lift to sk .. took bus back from there ..

5th apr : thursday ..

reached arnd 12 again .. then was making ids with kokwei before going down to painting sides .. lunched with the usuals before continuing to paint .. had dinner with audris, meiling, amy, dean, zhiwei, selwyn at boon tong kee .. wei tricked alvin into coming .. haha he's super funny laa .. that idiot kana scolded by kevin for no reason .. then he took my hp and ran to the guys' toilet ..

we just painted till 10plus .. nessa's grp had to take down their top bcuz it was bending the pipe .. we helped them before leaving school ..

6th apr : friday ..

good friday!

got woken up at 8.30 by my mum la .. she kept nagging saying that it was so rare that we could have family time together .. blah blah blah .. so we ended up going for breakfast at delifrance .. then went to popular and ntuc ..

mum wanted to go sentosa but my sis was going out with her friends and i was suppose to go sch .. so instead my mum asked my cousins along .. and in order to stop her from spending a bomb .. i suggested going ubin instead .. plus my other cousin wasnt' working today .. so it was like if she comes along i'll go .. and finally after alot of negotiation .. we decided to go ubin ..

they came over arnd 1 .. and we took bus to changi point .. my cousin suddenly fell sick la .. and we had to get medicated oil and water for her .. after she was feeling much better .. we camwhored before taking the bumboat over to ubin .. it was so fun laa .. with the sun shining and the wind in our face blowing our hair all arnd .. it was happyness ..

went to look for some place to rent bikes .. manage to rent like 5 single seaters and 1 double seater bike .. and off we went .. took alot of pics on the way .. returned the bikes arnd 5plus and we rested arnd .. met zhihao there .. took the bumboat back to sg and headed down to ecp where we were meeting the rest of our relatives cuz my aunt striked 4d and it was my cousin's bday the next day ..

waited till everyone came before going to long beach .. ordered quite alot sia .. had to give the kids food else they would fight and some pple might not get a chance to eat .. it was such a tough job .. and my stupid cousin was like enjoying herself while i give out the food .. =.=" .. we had like 8 kids with us .. =X ..

had alot of fun with them laa .. at arnd 10plus we went our seperate ways and we cabbed back ..

7th apr : saturday ..

dad woke us up at 7 .. went to have breakfast with my parents at hans .. came back and not long ltr my uncle called arnd 9plus saying that he was gonna reach soon ... went down with grandma and headed to uncle's place ..

aunt briefed us on what to do and we started cutting up the cardboard according to measurements 2.85cm or 5.85cm .. had to cut plastic too .. it needed skill and patience! .. i scraped my finger quite a no. of times with the penknife laa ..

was doing that the whole time .. had chicken rice for lunch and uncle da bao ampang yong tau fu for our dinner .. continued to do till 11 before he drove us back .. that just summed up what we did the whole day .. my arm was aching by the time i got home ..

8th apr : sunday ..

went to church in the morning .. praise and worship, communion, announcement and sermon by uncle chuan iau .. the msg he spoke was rather clear .. went to library and up to mini creche .. had singspiration and jan came late .. it was her turn to do craft and it's easter sunday!

so after the kids finish eating .. they were made to colour a blank sheet of ppr .. after that we made the ppr into lil baskets and put in 4 chocolate easter eggs for each kid .. plus some frills to make it look like "hay" .. the kids and their parents loved it (:

went to parkway with my mummy to look for amanda's bday pressie but didnt find anything nice .. ended up buying a apple green round bottom bag .. then went to meet them at the bus stop .. took 853 down to the bus stop in front of city plaza and crossed over to the other bldg .. went to the restaurant there where it was a lunch organised for those pple with "zeng" in their surnames!

surprisingly the founder of chan brother travel was there! he's a really friendly old man .. came to talk to us at our table .. in fact he went to each table to talk la .. he jokingly said that he thinks that he's the oldest arnd the pple there cuz he's like 83 .. but my grandma was like nono .. i'm 88! .. then he quickly changed and said that he thinks he's the oldest amongst the old uncles there .. it was super funny laa ..

after lunch we headed to my uncle's place to help my cousin with his architectual proj .. the whole family was helping out la .. my cousin's friend and his cousin of the other side came by too .. and instead of doing what i did the day before .. i was given a more tough job cuz i know how to use photoshop and my cousin needed me to edit and create some stuff .. i took quite long to do it laa .. arnd 10 my uncle drove my family and grandma back .. then i quickly took a shower and packed my stuff before going down cuz he was waiting for me ..

i stayed over at my cousin's place doing the photoshop thingy the whole night .. thank God for ian! he was online too .. in fact i nearly dozed off while i did the photoshop stuff la .. my head was so heavyy .. i finally finish doing the stuff at 6plus am .. gave to my cousin and he told me to rest .. my 2 cousins & aunt didnt sleep the whole night laa! .. and his fren stayed till 5plus before going back ..

9th apr : monday ..

one day before baoc! ..

fell asleep close to 7 till 9 .. i actually set my alarm at 8 but was so tired i stopped it .. had breakfast before packing my stuff .. then went up to help my aunt with fixing the model .. i did the 3rd storey and 5th storey myself! it was abit screwed for the 5th one cuz no time .. cousin suppose to submit by 2 .. but i didnt manage to finish doing till 3plus and he hadn't finish his report yet ..

so at 4 my uncle gave me a lift to tanah merah mrt stn .. wanted to take train to sch but decided to cab instead .. it was like $15 .. i manage to sleep on the way there .. then met meiling and the rest .. the exam hall was almost done .. we just cut, painted and drew alot of gold coins before going for dinner with hsien tze, aik leng, kenneth, amy and meiling .. we headed to bkt timah hawker .. amy, ml and me had hokkien mee .. we ordered it first and it took ages to come laa .. the guys ordered their food later and still they came before ours! ..

had a crapping session laa .. then headed back cuz we were gonna have a long day the next day .. walked over to the bus stop opposite kap in hope of taking bus .. but 74 was so packed .. so in the end i couldn't resist temptation and cabbed home instead .. showered and by 12 i was in bed ..

school blues ..

it has been 10 days since school started ..
lectures are as dry as desert ..
tutorials are as sleepy as bedtime stories ..

somehow i really understand what's going on arnd me at all ..
lost. confused. drained ..

i'm feeling much better after visiting the doc's .. *thanks for everyone's concern (:
i dun wanna be too dependent on the medication itself .. although it's just for headache ..
but the weird thing is that till now the pain comes back ..

sighs .. my laptop is really gonna be out of space soon .. 1.8 GB left in C:
dunno how long will it last .. it's super laggy la .. ):

okays i'm gonna go hit my bed after packing my stuff ..
nights!

unwell. ):

feeling like crap now .. ):
my head hurts .. sighhs ..

wont someone pull a trigger and shoot my head?! ..

uncle paul went to heaven ytd ..
he's really young .. like only abit older than dad ..
but he was suffering from cancer ..
leaving aunty marilyn and andrea here ..

i know that i shld have gone for the funeral with my parents just now.. but i couldn't bring myself to go.
*sorry uncle paul.

after attending funerals of 2 close friend's relative and my late grandma's .. i somewhat dislike funerals .. but as alot of pple would say .. who likes funeral?! .. it's like a phase of life everyone must go thru right?! ..

u guys might not know .. but every night i sleep with fear my 88 yrs old grandma would just go silently in her sleep .. she's very dear to me and i really dont want her to leave me .. so no matter how many times she goes to the toilet every night and how long she stands at my window to count buses at the interchange .. i wouldn't mind at all .. as long as i know she hasn't left me yet ..

on a lighter note.
i've already started blogging my long entry from 3rd apr -> 9th apr .. but somehow i kinda forgot what happened btw 3rd till 5th apr .. oh wells .. i'll try to recall and post that entry up soon ..

for now .. i can't wait to meet og grp tmr (: .. so may the stupid pain in my head be gone!

i'm super emo now.

let's see .. i havent been really blogging for nearly half a mth 18 days to be excat ..
hmms no mood for anything now .. it's like apr wk 1-2 was family bonding .. apr wk 2-3 was baoc .. and now .. apr wk 3 it's the start of a new school term .. a new yr ..

the beginning of this new school term isn't fantastic and as what i expected though .. i feel as if i'm gonna crumble soon .. with my laptop that is making so much noise .. it's making me have a heartache everytime i hear the noise cuz that means it's gonna die on me very soon .. i wish it'll last for another 6mths .. just those 6 crucial mths will do .. i'll be very contented.

for now .. grping is another matter .. i shant' talk abt it till it's resolved.

within my family .. everything's well so far .. except the fact that mum's co. is gonna shut down for 9days and she want's dad to accompany her for a holiday during the labour day week .. i'm trying to see if i can go too .. but wells .. maybe not la .. cuz it's gonna be elearning .. and i dont wanna risk my 10% for all the modules ..

within my friends. i've drifted alot from some pple alrr .. i've got to know new pple too .. i even "patched up" with my bff. somehow .. i really dunno what to say abt those i've drifted from .. cuz there are reasons why we drifted; mostly misunderstandings and intolerance. but i'll try to stop the drift cuz i really dun wanna lose any friends.

*if u know that we've been drifting and u would like to find out why .. maybe u shld just ask me .. but pls dont be offended or what if i tell u the truth .. cuz i know the truth hurts. but i guess that's the best to resolve what's going on arnd us. and hopefully we can still be friends like before.

is it a trend that everyone's closing their blogs down?!
i've been thinking that maybe i shld close mine too. but it's hard .. really hard .. i'm so used to blogging to actually recall what i've done over the year .. all those memories just rush back like tidal wave when i go back to my archives and re-read the posts ..

sighs .. i wish i could turn back time and not do things i regret. somehow i think my life is filled with alot of things that i regret doing now .. what can i do to make me stop myself from a life of regrets?!

heartache;
won't someone save me from this mess?

ohanNaaa is love (:

have been spending my days with my families -- both mum & dad sides on different days! .. it's just so fun la .. seriously no matter how terrible it was .. i still enjoyed myself (: ..

anyways i'm really tired .. will be back to update more when i have the time and mood .. most likely the coming FRIDAY or sth .. cuz baoc is just arnd the corner .. i'm super not in the mood for it .. but i shall created my own mood .. so dont worry pple .. it'll still be a blast somehow ..

yepps .. time for bed now !! ..

nights (:

i LOVE my familyyy!!

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Life for some time now has been somewhat depressing and you feel 'under the weather'. You are looking for a means by which you can escape from all the pressures of everyday life. But you must remember that the 'Past does not equal 'Tomorrow'. You are seeking a way to escape from all the trials and tribulations that oppress you at this time, but at least you haven't given up - if one pattern of behaviour doesn't seem to work then you'll change it for another.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

Everything seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are 'holding back', re-consolidating your position and relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.

Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.

You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.

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i kinda agree to what they deduced .. it's just so me .. having all those crappy mood swings .. BOO. i'm so tired and i've stopped watching shows at the moment cuz i know i would not be able to sleep at night .. so i'm stopping for awhile to catch up with my sleep and try to continue another day .. maybe during the weekends where my sis also can watch and maybe they'll "accompany" me during the sleepless nights .. HAHA ..

have been going back to school for orientation stuff too .. i'm super tired .. the pple there are real nice too (: .. anywayys i'll do a proper update when i'm feeling less tired .. and hopefully in the mood to blog ..

for now i'll go to bed in 2 mins which is 1am sharp ..

nights (:


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i still miss u. FIVEyearsdays!

twenty-THREE

havent been updating again .. BOO.

1st apr : sunday ..

it's april fools' day! .. but luckily i didnt get pranked .. hmms .. couldn't sleep at night cuz kept thinking abt the show i was watching in the afternoon .. somehow managed to get forty winks before dad woke all of us up .. and surprisingly .. i wasn't the only one who couldn't sleep .. both sisters also couldn't!

went to church and we got there on the dot .. praise and worship background music was too loud =X .. then communion .. had special announcement on ABC .. finally sermon by uncle daw ching .. it was erm .. lengthy .. totally didnt get it at all la .. the whole chapel was kinda fidgity .. oh wells ..

went up to library to return my book and was at mini creche .. 15 kids today .. singspiration and story telling before break time .. had another round of singspiration before dismissal .. after all the kids left .. dad came up to look for us and we went to eat nasi lemak near tuition place where my sis were having their tuition .. mum had laksa and it was kinda delicious .. lil kenneth was there eating with his parents too ! ..

we took the shuttle bus to sengkang before taking train back .. then was watching show for awhile and talked to yishi on the phone before dozing off .. had dinner at orange lantern .. super filling .. went to popular and bought the stationaries we need .. was at ntuc stocking up food .. came home and continued to watch the show till 2 .. then went to sleep .. but ahhs arnd 3plus i woke up and couldn't sleep ..

msged cand close to 4 .. then she called back and we were talking for 1hr 12mins .. cuz my sis came into the room to change her sch uniform .. somehow stoned for awhile before falling asleep ..

thank u candice for accompanying me (:

2nd apr : monday ..

got up at 10plus to see so many msges on my hp .. got one from vt that asked me to wear heels cuz she didn't wanna be oddly tall .. hahaha .. that funny girl .. so was talking to huiis online then went to shower .. left house at 2 and met huiis at kovan before heading down to city hall .. we had lunch at suntec crystal jade cuz both of them were craving for porridge .. i had macaroni .. the soup was nice .. the very nice vt treated us that meal (:

then they both psycho-ed me to watch 23 laa .. checked the time and found out marina had a 4.30 show .. so after going to life bookshop to get huii's stuff .. we went to marina .. omg la .. throughout the whole show i was like covering my ears and closing my eyes .. the ending was ok la .. but i still prefer chick flicks/romance stories! not horror/thrillers ..

after the show we walked arnd a while more .. then met eunicee who was gonna meet her friend .. continued walking back to the mrt via citylink .. met alot of pl pple laa .. we managed to squeeze into a packed train from city hall to dhoby .. and luckily nel wasn't that packed .. vt got off at serangoon, huiis at kovan and i got off at hougang ..

came home and had dinner .. curry chicken!! .. it was so spicy laa .. i ate only half and gave the other half to my dad ... then ate strawberries they were kinda sweet .. didn't do anything much after that .. was quite tempted to watch my show .. but ahh i know i won't be able to sleep .. so shall watch it next time in broad daylight ..

kinda sad that i forgot to watch a show on tv at 10 laa .. haiis .. i only rmbed when it was 11 .. by then the show was over alr .. BOO.

i'm so tired .. but i'm scared i can't sleep again .. sighhs .. HOWHOWHOW!??! i feel dumb thinking and thinking and thinking till i can't sleep la .. i wish i had more courage .. but ahh .. how to get courage? =X

randomly. i'm so excited cuz i'm gonna meet yishi for lunch tmrr (: .. we'll be having tiramisuuu for dessert .. happyness (:

okays i'm gonna stop here for now.
nights!


where are u;
just when i needed u most.