good luck to me.

been to the doctor's and was diagnosed with Tonsillitis .. his reaction was quite bad i must say .. he went "you're dying". and yea .. i feel like i'm dying too ..
he prescribed me a strong antibiotics - penicillin and the chemist adviced me to take another pill which would replenish all the good bacteria from my body ..
so yea .. just praying and hoping i'll get well soon .. cuz i just keep coughing and coughing + my voice was almost gone + my throat is really SORE. sighs ..

i really want to have an internet connection soon. it's really tough living without one.
and i've gotta go alr .. hopefully there's a connection in my mum's hotel.

will update soon.
wish me luck!

relationships and other ramblings ..

i've been quite bored waiting for vanessa to be back from her lecture at 1 ..
ended up browsing through sg news and stuff on channel news asia, asiaone and stomp ..
found afew articles on relationships which are just so touching ..

as quoted from till death do us part - published on Mon, Feb 16, 2009 The Straits Times
"One year on, Mr Tham still misses his wife.
'It can get very lonely. I think of her all the time,' he says."

i just read this story and i was tearing away .. it's quite sad to have the one u love departing before u .. but death is a lifecycle i guess .. and i believe we'll all meet in Heaven one day.
but i'm not really sure of my own .. let's just say we have really different views and our characters are absolutely opposites. i can't imagine myself saying to him "see u in hell" on the deathbed when i know that i want to go Heaven to be with everyone else i love. i would rather say "If you get there before I do, don't give up on me. I'll meet you when my chores are through, I don't know how long I'll be. But I'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see. And between now and then. Til I see you again, I'll be loving you. Love, Me."

just thinking abt this whole thing makes me feel like growing old alone myself. then i won't have to go through this whole loved and loss thing but it's pretty lonesome when u're old. i rmb this joke i heard from somewhere which went like this: a reporter asked a lady who just turned 104 "what's the good thing about being so old?" and she replied "no peer pressure" .. it's true to certain extent .. but still .. u're alone. sighs ..

anyway another article i saw is also quite sad .. imagine being together for 8 years and separating just before vday. that was what happened to the 2 celebs which is quite a pity ..
as quoted from last words - published on Stomp Star Blog by Jamie Yeo "Relationships are a funny thing. You spend a good part of your life sharing it intimately with someone, exposing your vulnerabilities and flaws and accumulating photos and trinkets. You eat, drink and sleep with him, and your insurance policies even name him as a beneficiary. He/she is everything to you. But when it ends, it stops existing almost immediately, cruelly refusing to take into account the memories and times spent together. Photos and home-made videos are packed up into boxes and banished to the back of the wardrobe. Gifts you received from each other lay stored in the safe. And even if you're still friends, that friendship has to be worked on because occasionally, hurt and pain creep into its fabric and tug at it ever so slightly. There is never a happy ending to a relationship, although the love that you had for each other now manifests itself simply and brotherly and will always and forever exist."

i think IF i ever have a break up .. my world would just crumble straight down and i'll start going on depression mode .. i'm so used to life in a relationship that i dont think i'll be able to get used to singlehood life as much as alot of pple say "singlehood rocks!" as there are no limitations and stuff .. maybe we might not even be friends if that happen cuz i won't be able to forget those times we spent together ..

ah .. i wonder why i'm rambling all these now .. vday just past and my 14th month-niversary is just 2 days away! sighs .. i can't believe i cried thinking and typing of all these .. this is how fragile and emotional i am when it comes to relationship stuff .. so if my bf is reading this and wants to end it off .. it'll be good to do it earlier instead of dragging and putting so much feelings into the relationship which eventually become wasting all my strength and draining all my energy.

oh wells .. i think i just totally freaked everyone reading this .. but aye it's just my point of view. no hard feelings or anything .. everything is still fine with me and my bf .. (:

*p.s i'm still quite sick here .. throat is still quite sore and inflammed + i just had a minor nose bleed. SIGHS .. was blowing my nose and suddenly i see blood .. got quite freaked out .. i guess i'm not really used to the dusty and dry environment here .. anyway will try to update soon again .. no more emo posts i hope!

yays it's lunch! and vanessa's back so we're going out for lunch now! i'm getting hungry too! .. (:

with love ♥

the BIG move.

home sweet home!

boo i'm like up so early in the morning .. and i'm really sleepy ..

but we're moving house today! =D
quite excited actually .. i'll get my own room! hehe

had just gotten the new furnitures yesterday and spent the WHOLE day just DIY fixing up everything .. it was so tiring .. kept hammering, screwing allen keys and screws .. tsktsk .. for the moment i really missed my dad and my bf who were so capable in those stuff .. haha

but wells .. i must be independent here! so i fixed up 80% of my furnitures with vanessa .. i'm waiting for my parents and sis's arrival on monday before i'll bring them to ikea with me so that they can help me with my bed and matteress purchase. MUAHAHA =D *smart aye?!*

school's starting pretty soon .. and i've a pretty timetable! i only have school on tues, weds and thurs! tues - 8 to 2, weds 8 to 2 and thurs 8 to 10. how short is that?

beside that point .. i'm having sunkissed skin now! went rottnest with harjeet, shinder, their cousin and vanessa .. snorkling there with vanessa and shinder .. the sun was very HOT .. but wells we enjoyed ourselves there! have alot of pictures posted in facebook .. so do go there to check it out! sighs .. my skin is still stingy and i can't really sleep on my back ):

alrights i've got to start packing my bits and pieces now!

the convi van vanessa's uncle borrowed is arriving anytime soon..

will be internet-less for a few weeks in the new house cause we havent' had the time to apply it and didnt know it'll take that long ): .. so i'll try my best to go online as often as i can at sch or sth .. for anyone who's bored and misses me, you are very welcome to give me a call at my aussie no.! it's on my pm on msn so do take it down! ..

with lotsa loveeeee;

more or less settled.

heys peeps ..
sorry for the long delay ..
i have like quite afew half written drafts that i have yet to post since jan =x
i finally manage to complete the one on vy's bday & the day out with ptgf + jere ..

i have like cny post, farewell week post, and perth week post that i haven't really updated ..
goodness me .. SIGHS.

anyway things here are pretty ok .. i'm fine so far but just that it's the first day of my period and i had really bad cramps like few mths ago when i was rolling arnd the bed and hyperventilating and the doc had to give me a jab to ease the pain .. =x it happened today again .. but i was outside so i didnt roll .. i just kept finding somewhere to sit and grab my stomach to ease the pain .. hyperventilating like no one's business .. think nessa was shocked when she saw me really pale and breaking out in cold sweat ..

sighs .. it was bad .. now i feel the cramps coming again ): .. maybe i shld eat another panadol before going to sleep else i'll start rolling all over the bed and knocking nessa out of the bed =x ..
BOO. anyway i promise i'll update soon! .. will try to make time to update this ..

going to do some other stuff now!
nights!