still feeling rather lost ..

sighs. day 2 of being a slacker ..
again i slept till 12+ .. and was watching tv the whole afternoon ..
at least i did something condusive for awhile .. which is to source for schools ..
BUT in the end i got a headache looking at them and gave up eventually =x

sighs. i really dont know what to do ):

planning and intending to do some stuff
1) try to cook dinner everyday with different dishes from the cook books
2) bake more yummy stuff
3) stop slacking and start enrolling to schools
4) plan my holidays .. aussie with vy, redang with ms tan, dearest and vy & tw with i dunno who
5) going out with friends for movies/makan dates
6) stop being selfish.

i really feel bad .. dearest is working damn hard now cuz of the new product he's managing and yet he still comes over to my place after work and reaches home arnd 12+ ..

i guess i shld start getting used to life wout seeing him almost 167 .. it just feels weird cuz i am very used to seeing him everyday at work last time .. and now with the new product he'll have to OT on sats too .. i guess i'll just have to get use and settle with 161 on sundays instead cuz of his busy schedule at work.

i'm not really looking fwd to aug cuz i'll have to get use to 000 cuz he'll be starting school and will be busy with his projs and exams .. sighs.

this whole thing just proves the fact that absence makes the heart grows fonder .. i really miss my bf. ):