i feel distant ..

honestly .. i'm still at a loss ..
i dont know what i want or what shld i do .. maybe i shld have just continued on working ..
i met jason in the train that day and he was telling me how silly i was to discontinue working reasons being:
1) i had no concrete plans at the moment so basically i could still be working and earning money before i come up with a plan
2) dearest is working there too so at least i won't feel that bored working there
it's true to certain extent .. i'm not really sure .. sighs.

i have 2 options now ..
1) further studies in aussie together with vy for 2.5 yrs
2) take up another skill and work for another yr before trying to apply for 4 unis next yr

i'm really stuck between these 2 options .. monetary & time matters ..
any advice from any nice souls?

my sleeping hours are becoming irregular ): .. sighs
i kept tossing and turning the whole of last night till almost 6am this morning and somehow i finally fell asleep .. i slept in the afternoon too .. that was hw tired i was .. and now im still tired but not really sleepy .. zzzzz.

things at home are not really good too ..
im stuck btw 2 people who are at loggerheads with each other cuz of a minor thing. ):
both hates each other and refuse to talk or even be at the same place as the other ..
honestly if this continues on i'll go INSANE so please find a way to make peace with each other soon ..try to compromise for me .. family ties are impt and so is love. don't make me decide to give up either else the outcome wouldnt be a happy one.

that's all im gonna blog for now.
goodnight