try to understand me.

i am super random now.
it's ONE more day till i start attachment and i'm not really looking forward to it ..
no idea why i'm feeling this way too ..
sighs.

i realised i do not mean what i say most of the times.
maybe it's just me and my wishful thinking ..
sometimes i think that i could pick things up from where i left them in the past ..
but in fact everything changed and i can't continue from there at all.

so people usually say ..
everything happens for a reason;
what's my reason?! i haven't really figured that out yet ..
won't any kind soul tell me what to do?

i feel like i'm living my life filled with emptyness.
no real meaning at all .. like everything is just a facade.
people masquerading under masks, virtual reality seems so true.

unknown and undiscovered ..
who i really am;
my identity, my reason.