finally over but i've got other things on my mind.

yays. just finish our last presentation the term afew mins ago ..
it had been a crazy sleepless week and i feel like a walking zombie ..
but i'm really lucky to have such a great family that cares for me (:
my parents bought macs for me for 2 nights plus a cup of ginseng last night ..
my sisters were being less irritating which was good too ..

and for the next 4 days .. amanda's away from camp (: *grins widely*
that means i can study for my common test in peace .. but but but .. i shall study with eunice @ our usual study spot instead .. i really miss studyingg with my jiemeis!! .. it seems that we haven't study together for a LONG LONG time .. although the exams last sem just ended in feb .. =X ..

i'm really sleepy. 10 hours of sleep over 3 days .. i've suffered enough for now .. i'm gonna fly home after mec lect and hit my bed to makeup for all the loss.

random rants:
many WHYS but often answers of "consolation" and not reality ..
sometimes i wonder.. did i make a wrong choice since the beginning? why did i choose it?
question -- am i really happy or is it just a facade?
i don't feel like the real me anymore .. no more happy-go-lucky .. no more becoming a blessing to others .. instead i feel more like a unfeeling bitch.
please explain to me why have i became like that because i have no idea why too.
i wish for everything to be back to normal.

truly sorry for all the hurt caused.
it wasn't meant to be this way.
but because of imperfection and competition ..
i realised i've gone way too far.
please tell me what to do.