unwell. ):

feeling like crap now .. ):
my head hurts .. sighhs ..

wont someone pull a trigger and shoot my head?! ..

uncle paul went to heaven ytd ..
he's really young .. like only abit older than dad ..
but he was suffering from cancer ..
leaving aunty marilyn and andrea here ..

i know that i shld have gone for the funeral with my parents just now.. but i couldn't bring myself to go.
*sorry uncle paul.

after attending funerals of 2 close friend's relative and my late grandma's .. i somewhat dislike funerals .. but as alot of pple would say .. who likes funeral?! .. it's like a phase of life everyone must go thru right?! ..

u guys might not know .. but every night i sleep with fear my 88 yrs old grandma would just go silently in her sleep .. she's very dear to me and i really dont want her to leave me .. so no matter how many times she goes to the toilet every night and how long she stands at my window to count buses at the interchange .. i wouldn't mind at all .. as long as i know she hasn't left me yet ..

on a lighter note.
i've already started blogging my long entry from 3rd apr -> 9th apr .. but somehow i kinda forgot what happened btw 3rd till 5th apr .. oh wells .. i'll try to recall and post that entry up soon ..

for now .. i can't wait to meet og grp tmr (: .. so may the stupid pain in my head be gone!