i'm super emo now.

let's see .. i havent been really blogging for nearly half a mth 18 days to be excat ..
hmms no mood for anything now .. it's like apr wk 1-2 was family bonding .. apr wk 2-3 was baoc .. and now .. apr wk 3 it's the start of a new school term .. a new yr ..

the beginning of this new school term isn't fantastic and as what i expected though .. i feel as if i'm gonna crumble soon .. with my laptop that is making so much noise .. it's making me have a heartache everytime i hear the noise cuz that means it's gonna die on me very soon .. i wish it'll last for another 6mths .. just those 6 crucial mths will do .. i'll be very contented.

for now .. grping is another matter .. i shant' talk abt it till it's resolved.

within my family .. everything's well so far .. except the fact that mum's co. is gonna shut down for 9days and she want's dad to accompany her for a holiday during the labour day week .. i'm trying to see if i can go too .. but wells .. maybe not la .. cuz it's gonna be elearning .. and i dont wanna risk my 10% for all the modules ..

within my friends. i've drifted alot from some pple alrr .. i've got to know new pple too .. i even "patched up" with my bff. somehow .. i really dunno what to say abt those i've drifted from .. cuz there are reasons why we drifted; mostly misunderstandings and intolerance. but i'll try to stop the drift cuz i really dun wanna lose any friends.

*if u know that we've been drifting and u would like to find out why .. maybe u shld just ask me .. but pls dont be offended or what if i tell u the truth .. cuz i know the truth hurts. but i guess that's the best to resolve what's going on arnd us. and hopefully we can still be friends like before.

is it a trend that everyone's closing their blogs down?!
i've been thinking that maybe i shld close mine too. but it's hard .. really hard .. i'm so used to blogging to actually recall what i've done over the year .. all those memories just rush back like tidal wave when i go back to my archives and re-read the posts ..

sighs .. i wish i could turn back time and not do things i regret. somehow i think my life is filled with alot of things that i regret doing now .. what can i do to make me stop myself from a life of regrets?!

heartache;
won't someone save me from this mess?