mixed feelings ..

It's amazing to see 2 strangers becoming best of friends.
But it's sad to see 2 best friends becoming strangers.
- abstracted from vincent's blog.

my mind is in a blank state now .. randomly blogging away ..
just finish watching "misleading tracks" - series that shawn lent me ..
it was a happy ending .. but yet quite sad ..

the quote above .. reminded me of the past .. but wells it's all over already ..
at least it isn't that bad till strangers .. i'm glad she's still my friend ..

have had sleepless nights the past few days .. thinking about many things .. tossing and turning in bed .. having weird dreams .. sometimes i dont even know what i'm doing .. no sense of direction at all ..

i can be happy and crazy at one point but sad and alone at another .. this is driving me nuts .. sometimes even continual persuasion can drive me crazy .. i really dont need it from anyone now .. maybe i just needed to be left alone.

for now. i really dont know what i'm doing .. i might or might not turn up tmr .. i'm not even sure of myself at all .. we shall see again .. i'm feeling really down now and i have no clue why is that so.


what's my next step;
wishes for a sign.