the last heart wrenching experience.

will be updating on 2 days ..
so here it goes (:

sunday : 25th mar ..

i had such a terrible time in the night cuz i kept thinking that ants were on my bed .. so i practically didn't sleep at all .. i was tossing and turning in bed .. dad came to wake my sis up .. then he "woke" me at 7 .. was in such a terrible mood due to the lack of sleep .. so i wore black.

left house at 7.55 and reached church on the dot .. mum didn't go service cuz she still wasn't feeling too well .. she went straight up to mini creche and rest .. it was kinda weird without mum .. oh wells .. had praise & worship, communion, announcement and a short item by a combined lg .. after which sermon by uncle robin .. it was abt encouraging ..

anyways i decided that this yr we might go for ABC (annual bible camp) this yr! .. cuz it falls on the 2 wk break!! from 11-15 june @ allson klana resort (seremban) .. like so fun laa .. we shall see again (: .. i'm psychoing jacob to go too .. wahaha ..

after service was at the library till 11 before going up .. singspiration with lil kids and storytime by uncle teckhum abt the good samaritan .. had breaktime and was feeding josh .. the chubby lil boy ate very quickly (: .. had 2nd round of singspiration and dimissed class early cuz mum wasn't feeling that well .. went to the library to take over dad while he bought lunch back for us cuz mum was resting there .. plus the sun so hot .. that's why we rather eat takeaways there .. uncle anthony ate with us too .. shared my packet of chicken rice with lil sis .. surprisingly amanda ate all of hers by herself ..

we cabbed home after that .. alethea change into her swimwear and went down to meet my cousins to go for swimming with them .. then was online checking some IS stuff .. ended up sleeping for awhile till 5 .. i couldn't wake up laa .. freshen up before leaving house at 5.30.. took train to outram .. met meiling, regina & shawn at the green line ctrl stn .. alvin & kevin were late la .. so we walked over to the purple line entrance F and sat outside the handicap area waiting for them .. when they finally came .. meiling's dad came too ..

he drove us to meiling's place .. we had steamboat there .. her mum prepared alot of food for us laa .. got chicken, pork, fish, abalone, liver, toufu, eggs, glass noodles, prawns, etcetc .. it was like a cny reunion steamboat .. haha .. meiling's parents were very very nice! (: .. we helped chop the toufu .. each one of us took half a "tube" .. then meiling chopped first .. hers only chop 3/4 way .. nv fully come off .. then mine was ok la .. amy forgot to take off the plastic .. haha .. dionne also quite good .. first time doing such thing eh! .. haha ..

meiling's parents were super funny and nice pple to talk to .. so we spent our time crapping from abt 6plus till 9 .. haha .. very bloated after that .. the topics we talked were like quite random .. haha .. from most fat pple are honest to queuing for donuts .. haha .. we had sparkling juice and went to meiling's room to cool down .. kevin, alvin, regina & meiling played mahjong while amy, dionne, shawn and me were playing daidee with cards .. dionne was on a winning streak laa !! .. she kept winning .. haha .. then i "stole" her luck .. but in the end all of us still manage to win at least once la ..

we were playing for quite sometime then played the "fortune telling" thingy which i used to play during sec sch .. haha .. had to refresh abit .. it was so fun laa .. left the place at 11.50 .. cabbed with regina & her gf. the uncle was speeding all the way la .. dropped regina's gf off first .. then regina .. lastly me .. my dad was waiting downstairs for me .. came home and washed up before worrying abt the IS thing .. went to sleep arnd 2 ..

monday : 26th mar..

alarm rang at 7.30 .. had to force myself up cuz i was very tired .. jackson called 5 mins ltr to confirm what he want .. then emy msged so i called her back .. then i was like on the phone with her till i finish enrolling laa .. my system went haywire .. it was lagging badly also .. and i kept opening a new page to login .. choosed tourism but somehow i didn't get thru and there were not other mods alrr .. so emy told me to enrol for appreciating arts .. was kinda contemplating if i shld go for events comm. but decided not to since it's abt presentation ..

then went back to sleep till 11.30.. was online getting ready to help john enrol for his IS - events mgt .. then was talking to emy online .. hers got prob so i quickly help her do but no appreciating arts .. in the end choose events comm. for her since alvin taking that too .. was really feeling lost cuz i didn't wanna appreciate art alone .. so went to confirm with jackson what he really want .. but he was busy and said he'll call me back ltr..

had lunch and was watching movies online (: .. i watched music and lyrics .. it was nice !! .. after that watched abit of stomp the yard but found it quite boring .. jackson called and said that he wanted tourism .. else arts and if both can't get in .. events comm. .. while talking to him abt it i saw antss on my table! .. totally freaked out and quickly hung up.. went on an ant killing mission cuz i found the trail .. it was coming from the top of my cupboard/ceiling ..

was talking to regina abt her IS .. she was really kanchiong la .. but at least she's smart enough to ask meiling & her gf to help her .. cuz in the end she couldn't log in and her gf got french for her while meiling got photography for her .. it was super funny la .. the 4pm slot seems like the most relaxing slot la .. cuz when i got in there wasn't any lag whatsoever .. and i manage to choose tourism for him easily and he got into the same class as me & emy for world perspective .. told him abt swapping and he ask me to swap to tourism. i wish i could la .. but it's such a hot mod that no one will come out of it .. so i don't see a chance of going there at all ..

after settling everything .. my cousin called and went to help her choose her IS .. found another show -- but i'm a cheerleader .. i thought the storyline was ok at first like how the concern parents send their daughter to this place for treatment to become straight .. but i didnt excatly expected the girl to become totally les laa .. it was quite dumb .. BOO.

my sis was really dumb! .. i used a scotch tape to "kill ants" by sticking them to the tape .. then bcuz i wanted to "recycle" the tape so i could kill more ants if they came .. i faced the sticky side upwards with 2 ants stuck on it.. then my stupid sis was taking clothes from her cupboard to bathe .. i told her that there were ants and she knew .. and after 1sec she went and STEP ON THE SCOTCH TAPE =.=" .. i was like O.O" u stepped on the ants!! .. when she finally noticed and heard what i said.. she started screaming away and ask me to take the tape out laa .. but i didn't want to and ran away .. couldn't stop laughing .. =X .. what a silly sis i have.

had dinner with dad and gave him almost half of what i was eating cuz suddenly didn't feel like eating .. =X .. then was munching on seedless grapes while worrying abt IS .. then was watching tv .. at 10 went to check if i could swap .. was praying very very hard .. me & emy nearly went to cust service comm. .. but the placing snatched up too fast .. somehow i refreshed afew times and saw events comm.!! my heartbeat was like very fast as i processed my request .. finally heaved a sign of relief when i saw that it was successful (:

in fact thoughout the day .. while i was waiting for the time to "strike" before i did all the enrolments .. i was feeling so worried that i couldn't get into the classes i was suppose to enrol for .. it's like my heart just raced like no one's business .. it was like a "i'm gonna get a heart attack and die" feeling .. but thank God i'm still alive!! .. and all of us got in to something we're happy with although it's not what we really want .. (: ..

so yepps .. i guess the power of prayer is really strong! .. i'm glad i've been given a chance to swap .. else i'll be like some lonely soul appreciating art myself. which is quite sad la .. i thought art suppose to be appreciated by at least 2 pple so there'll be different comments/perspectives on it .. and i'm so glad this is gonna be my last time i'm ever gonna fight over the stupid npal system to choose anything!

oh i forgot to add. i went to spray insecticide arnd my room again! this time on the corners of my ceiling! .. so my room was kinda smelling of insecticide .. but manage to get rid of the smell by opening my windows and fan was at full speed + air freshener at full blast also .. it was not that bad and my room is free of ants for now.

gonna queue for donuts with emy & meiling tmrr (:

*p.s i didn't know that today was the last performance of the musical fountain laa .. if not i'll go ): ..
**p.ss it's past 12am on 27th mar. my dad's bday alrr! we haven't plan anything yet.

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