torn apart ..
she didn't give up on me and put up with my nonsense for eighteen years ..
she's always there for me ..
she's the more hardworking staff in her department ..
she's the best teacher a lil kid could have ..
she's like a surrogate mother to my cousins from the maternal side of the family ..
she's the most filial daughter to my grandparents ..
she's the best mummy ever ..
but ...
she'll never know how much tears i've silently cried ..
she'll never know how much her presence at home mean to me ..
she'll never know how we really felt ..
cause ...
she's too caught up with her work and her own family matters ..
there's hardly any time left for our family at all.
it's so tough being the eldest .. having 2 little sisters who are so playful and refusing to listen at all .. i miss those times we spent having mini family outings .. like supper at hougang mall, fortnight grocery shopping, even shopping sprees at parkway ...
ever since afew months back .. we seldom do that already .. she has been coming home so late because of her work which was endless .. her boss is just so thoughtless to pile her work and with limited help she couldn't do much .. she even brings her work back home to do till quite late .. recently .. cuz of my grandma's illness .. she comes back even later .. almost every night she'll go down to BVH to visit her .. then by the time she's back it'll be like close to 11 ..
i hardly see her anymore .. every morning she leaves house at 7 .. that would be the time i'll be washing up .. and when she's back late .. after showering she'll just go straight to bed .. there isn't really a time to see each other .. even when we call her .. it's just for like less than a minute .. sighs .. i really dun know what else to say already .. but i really miss my mummy .. i miss my happy family ..
today it's my mummy's bday ..
we acutally planned to get a cake and celebrate like what we do every year ..
but last night we were told by my dad that they/she was going to attend some ex-classmate's wedding dinner .. so our plans were ruined .. i really got nothing else to say except i'm really torn apart by the current situation i'm facing now .. she doesn't even know that i'm having tests this week ... ...
whatever the case is ..
she's always there for me ..
she's the more hardworking staff in her department ..
she's the best teacher a lil kid could have ..
she's like a surrogate mother to my cousins from the maternal side of the family ..
she's the most filial daughter to my grandparents ..
she's the best mummy ever ..
but ...
she'll never know how much tears i've silently cried ..
she'll never know how much her presence at home mean to me ..
she'll never know how we really felt ..
cause ...
she's too caught up with her work and her own family matters ..
there's hardly any time left for our family at all.
it's so tough being the eldest .. having 2 little sisters who are so playful and refusing to listen at all .. i miss those times we spent having mini family outings .. like supper at hougang mall, fortnight grocery shopping, even shopping sprees at parkway ...
ever since afew months back .. we seldom do that already .. she has been coming home so late because of her work which was endless .. her boss is just so thoughtless to pile her work and with limited help she couldn't do much .. she even brings her work back home to do till quite late .. recently .. cuz of my grandma's illness .. she comes back even later .. almost every night she'll go down to BVH to visit her .. then by the time she's back it'll be like close to 11 ..
i hardly see her anymore .. every morning she leaves house at 7 .. that would be the time i'll be washing up .. and when she's back late .. after showering she'll just go straight to bed .. there isn't really a time to see each other .. even when we call her .. it's just for like less than a minute .. sighs .. i really dun know what else to say already .. but i really miss my mummy .. i miss my happy family ..
today it's my mummy's bday ..
we acutally planned to get a cake and celebrate like what we do every year ..
but last night we were told by my dad that they/she was going to attend some ex-classmate's wedding dinner .. so our plans were ruined .. i really got nothing else to say except i'm really torn apart by the current situation i'm facing now .. she doesn't even know that i'm having tests this week ... ...
whatever the case is ..
happy birthday!!
it has been a long time since i've seen such a smile on her face.
`31122oo5
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