unattainable bliss.
finally after today's presentation i felt a heavy burden off myself.
thanks to those who were there for me .. and not forgetting those who tagged :) .. ~ thank you !
i really hope i can resume my "normal" life again .. maybe i need a slower pace of life .. where i am able to cope with everything slowly and not those hectic messy days .. where i get lost in "outerspace" ..
will start on a proper update now .. enjoy ~
sunday : 9th july ..
got up at 7 .. left house at 7.45 .. took bus to church .. was on time i guess .. praise & worship, communion, announcements, sermon by rev amos .. interesting sermon .. but i didn't take down any sermon notes cuz it was like based on his experience in the mission field ... after that went to library .. slacked arnd there and went up to mini creche .. not long later sis made me go down to library cuz aunty jane wasn't coming for duty and no one would be arnd .. so made me cover first till dad came back ..
anyway after that it was pouring heavily .. i was wondering if i was "fated" to get stuck in the library cuz dad didn't have umbrella so i have no idea how he was coming back .. not long later he came back some how drenched la .. i went up .. they were still singing .. so played piano for awhile .. then break time .. i was feeding tiffany her noodles .. it was so longg and oily .. then ruey xin too .. i helped her with her porridge .. after that cleared up and was chasing a lil boy - perry cuz he was really mischievious and can't settle down .. *scroll down to see his pic :)
after that it was singspiration time again .. then helped the kids with their shoes .. one by one left .. i'm glad louise is becoming my friend !! .. haha .. oh wells cuz she always stick to her maid .. but now she'll occasionally look for me .. perry was the one and only one left !! .. then my mum was cleaning up .. before that she made him sit on the chair .. cuz he was too fidgity .. she "scolded" him and he sat .. short attention span !! .. he walked arnd later .. and mum was like "PERRY~" .. then me, jan & jan's cousin would be like "quickly go sit down!" .. then he sat on the floor but had to go back to the chair .. he's so adorable .. we gave him sweets and he was munching .. that's why he looks weird in the pic i took with him ..
after that brought him down to look for his parents .. and met them at the 2nd floor .. he was like clapping his hands .. so glad to see them .. went to meet dad who was covering aunty jane's duty .. then jackin was arnd .. mum talked to him .. uncle anthony was talking to us too .. at arnd 1.30 left to meet amanda & alethea at parkway .. we went jack's place for lunch .. yumms :) .. had a great time shopping .. was suppose to leave earlier but bcuz of the rain we were there till 5 ..
went isetan and bought a lace belt & jeans from joop .. then found my coux working there .. bought a pink top from her .. she gave us 25% discount instead of the usual 20% .. ahah .. after that went to help dad settle his phone line + changed my plan .. took a longg time la .. now my dad has a new line and i offically got my own number which is the current one i'm using .. coincidentally my parents & my no. have the same 2 front & back digits !! .. 98****55 .. so cool right .. anyway my plan changed to the ione plus student plan under my sis's name .. hees .. got free incoming .. haha anyone bored or needs a listening ear or wanna rant away can jux call me :) ..
after that bought another pearl belt .. then 2 umbrellas from giodano .. headed to grandma's place .. coux was there already .. watched tv and used his internet to chat with huiis & dora .. then skipped dinner and we went back early .. took bus all the way back and i fell asleep .. came home and wash up + snacked on chocolates & biscuits while watching pirates of the carribean .. then found out my laptop screen died on me .. was really frantic in the end i was using the screwed up win 98 desktop .. printed my french notes and chatted till 11 .. wasn't in a real good mood then .. manage to get the technical service no. for ibm before sleeping at arnd 12 .. the earliest so far ..
monday : 10th july ..
didn't had a good sleep .. i got up many times :( .. and 4+ i got an sms from emy .. she was shocked i replied .. it was storming then .. we msged for awhile before i fell asleep at 4.30 and woke up at 5.30 .. left house with sis and she told me that my mum actually woke up to watch the match la .. i was shocked .. haha ..
met vy at the interchange and went to sch .. harjeet's lesson only starts at 10 that's why she wasn't arnd .. the bus was FREEZING. me and vy were like trying to keep warm under our jackets .. met vin on the bus too .. he had pmkt presentation and was abit weird .. cuz i think his shirt too big + pants too small .. haha .. he so cute la .. suppose to meet his grp at 7.15 and reached at 7.40 .. that's why anyhow take pants and wear .. he don't even know if it was his sec sch's pants .. haha ..
anyway .. bought breakfast and was eating under the convention .. left for class arnd 7.55 .. then monsieur beniot wasn't arnd yet so hang arnd outside class .. emy came not long later .. went to class and he started .. got abit lost after that .. and in fact .. i was totally lost during the whole lesson la .. had to ask emy for help to translate .. i think my oral test die .. made stupid mistakes again .. i suddenly forgot how to reply .. after class we left .. i can't rmb if we did anything but came home .. then fell asleep in the bus .. had lunch and took 2 hours to settle my laptop problem .. the stupid person was irriating la .. called my mum to complain after hanging up ..
fell asleep again .. i think my sis said i slept for a long time .. till abt 8 .. then had dinner .. was using my laptop connected to my com screen .. did pmkt research .. then again went off at 11.30 .. didn't sleep till 12.30 though ..
tuesday : 11th july ..
got up earlyyyyy and reached school early too .. junwah was arnd .. emy came not long later .. ganting & guiluan weren't arnd so we went to pay our idare and went to collect wda notes .. after we came back they were arnd .. so we did our pmkt .. then headed for mwa lect .. tiredd .. all not listening sia .. had 1 hr break .. didn't feel like eating .. we basked in the sun at the study corner which had censor .. but it was like reactive to sound and me & emy were like quiet only when pple walked past and make alot of noise then the fan will work .. however we were in luck cuz there was wind !! .. haha ..
went to can 2 to look for ganting & guiluan in the end .. we bought $1 large ice cocktail which was like a full bowl .. can u imagine a $0.50 ice cocktail ?! .. maybe half a bowl .. ahaha .. after that was sitting outside LT waiting for mrs wong .. read book .. anyway she came not long later but forgot to bring her card .. so went back to get it .. then had a fast lect .. she zoOom everything .. me & shan shan were lost !! ..
oh .. i rmb that i was NICE .. i passed jere's notes to him thinking he'll use it cuz he didn't have notes .. but instead he kept it in his file =.=" .. how dumb can he get !! anyway whatever la .. i dun care ! went for mwa workshop .. did our workshop 5 template .. yayness .. went back after class .. tired tired .. came back and i think continue to do mwa/wda proj .. me & emy were doing the same thing la .. i sent my files over and she was editting .. then worked on pmkt .. after that got quite tired and slept arnd 12+ .. or was it 1+ .. i can't rmb ..
wednesday : 12th july ..
the peak of stress. i met peilin at arnd 7.30 .. then we took bus .. got caught in the jam at amk .. it's like really long la .. i slept and wake up still at same place .. anyway we reached school only at 9.30 la .. so the journey that day was like 2 hours =.=" .. the longest so far .. butt ached. hmms .. when i got to class .. only afew pple also .. she started at 10 .. went thru SQL tutorial .. but we weren't listening cuz we were installing our SQL servers ..
after that mwa tutorial .. she went thru tutorial and dismissed us .. had consultation with mrs koh for pmkt after that .. we were all so nervous .. then took down whatever she said .. after that met sy & wj .. was very blur la .. anyway i left my stuff with the rest and went to atrium with sy to help her with the payment for idare .. they were nice to walk back to canteen 1 with me .. met james, jy, lance .. then was sitting at the table with the rest .. wanted to collect blaw notes but don't have .. so bought pancakes for lunch and headed to study area behind 56 .. surprisingly shanshan's grp was there too ..
we did our research and updated whatever we had .. at arnd 3+ went for blaw with emy .. we were the only guai ones arnd besides dessy's grp .. was trying to keep ourselves awake .. then crapped .. missed the 52 met yg .. in the end i told emy to go off first .. called eunice to see if she wanted to go eat .. then met jiawen at the bus stop .. she jux finish her s&w .. saw jackson too and went to ask if he wanted to go .. somehow he ended up going .. then we jux crapped while waiting for darling eunice .. i thought yani was going but she was going on a date .. so it was jux the 3 of us ..
couldn't decide where to eat .. 52 came and headed to thomson plaza .. darling eunice was thinking of places to eat .. then i think they were "discussing" but in the end we went to bk .. had a great time chatting away with them .. :) i wish we could do it more often .. but so impossible .. time is always not on our side .. sighs .. went back arnd 7.30 .. eunice got a ride home from her parents .. 166 came and jackson left .. 132 came like a split second ltr .. stoned all the way home .. then got this indian guy ask me for directions to hougang mall .. came back and was working on the presentations .. pmkt then bmgt then pmkt again ..
wasn't in a good mood after that .. as u can see from my previous post .. i ended up "counselling" pple + had pple "counselling" me .. i'm really sorry if i had offended anyone in one way or another last night .. but was really very stressed .. at 2 couldn't take it and slept ..
thursday : 13th july ..
i woke up early this morning .. left house early too .. met peilin arnd 7.15 .. got caught in a jam again at amk !! .. i wonder why these days always got jam at amk .. reached school like 8.45 instead of the usual 8.30 .. then started writing the speech for bmgt .. went up to class and we were first ! .. was so nervous la .. i dunno what i was talking also .. i jux read from the slides and said "psychological" instead of "physiological" .. the teacher corrected me .. blahhx ..
after that we were doing pmkt speech and finalized our ppt cuz conclusion, recommendations were very little .. after that helped guiluan & junwah abit with their speech .. emy was practicing her speech !! so cute la .. all of us were stressed .. then went to print our ppt at the printing room .. i met him .. he looked worn out .. anyway the printer jammed up .. and we were late so rushed down to class .. the first grp was already presenting .. emy found out that we needed to submit our ppt so i went up to print ..
there was this nice yr 3 who lent me her laptop cuz i only brought up my thumbdrive + papers .. she even help me print la .. the other grp who was using the previous printer we used ended up printing whatever we jammed up .. anyway they were rude .. hmmphs .. waited quite sometime for everything to be printed .. then thanked her before rushing down .. the yr 3 girl was really nice and wished me luck :) ..
1st grp finish presenting when i went back .. did peer evaluation and collected everything .. 2nd grp presented .. then ours was 3rd grp .. emy started intro & micro .. she went fast !! .. but still good la .. then my macro .. omg la .. i took 6 mins =.=" in the end still never say alot of things sia .. *to my grp: sorry!!* .. then guiluan's segmentation .. after that was ganting who continued abt segmentation .. then junwah's trends .. omg la .. we were so anxious .. in the end quite disappointed cuz got alot of points someone never say and we even wrote it down + remind .. 20 mins jux passed so quickly =X .. wenling was counting the numbers of ERMs i had .. she said FIFTY-FIVE =.=" .. and there was like 3 erms in a row too .. i didn't even notice la ..
anyway mrs koh commented after all the grps presented .. she said emy presented well but too fast .. haha .. was dismissed and went back after that .. emy took cab with boon and i missed 52 again .. ended up taking 74 .. fell asleep as usual .. had lunch when i reached home .. then fell asleep till 7 .. skipped dinner but munched away again .. watched singapore idol .. jasmine still in :) ..
i'm still kinda "lost in my own world" now .. had a myriad of emotions/feelings again .. i suddenly dislike going to school .. school seems like the torture zone .. thought of skipping school tmr if not go out after that .. but i dunno where to go also and no one to go with too .. oh wells .. on the other hand .. i was thinking if i shld go straight home and sleep instead .. that's how boring my life is now .. and i have absolutely no mood to do tutorials .. i didn't do bmgt tutorial + i don't wanna do blaw tutorial .. i need some motivation now but maybe it might not work la ..
i was tearing abit jux now .. dunno why also .. jux felt like letting it all go .. there's still so many things ahead .. i hope i can cope with them .. yupps .. i'm going to blogg hopp for awhile .. then sleep early tonight .. maybe latest 12.30 ..
my horoscope for tmr ..
The Bottom Line
Transportation issues could slow you down now, so think up a smart backup plan.
In Detail
The biggest conflicts you experience today are centered around getting from point A to point B. There's a lot of negative energy around transportation right now, so be prepared for delays or detours. If you're driving, give yourself some extra time to make any appointments. Being late could set you back in many important ways -- so play it safe just in case. If you're taking some sort of public transportation, the people around you could affect your energy. Keep to yourself.
distant;
i won't disturb u anymore.
the pic i promised. jux perry & me !!
thanks to those who were there for me .. and not forgetting those who tagged :) .. ~ thank you !
i really hope i can resume my "normal" life again .. maybe i need a slower pace of life .. where i am able to cope with everything slowly and not those hectic messy days .. where i get lost in "outerspace" ..
will start on a proper update now .. enjoy ~
sunday : 9th july ..
got up at 7 .. left house at 7.45 .. took bus to church .. was on time i guess .. praise & worship, communion, announcements, sermon by rev amos .. interesting sermon .. but i didn't take down any sermon notes cuz it was like based on his experience in the mission field ... after that went to library .. slacked arnd there and went up to mini creche .. not long later sis made me go down to library cuz aunty jane wasn't coming for duty and no one would be arnd .. so made me cover first till dad came back ..
anyway after that it was pouring heavily .. i was wondering if i was "fated" to get stuck in the library cuz dad didn't have umbrella so i have no idea how he was coming back .. not long later he came back some how drenched la .. i went up .. they were still singing .. so played piano for awhile .. then break time .. i was feeding tiffany her noodles .. it was so longg and oily .. then ruey xin too .. i helped her with her porridge .. after that cleared up and was chasing a lil boy - perry cuz he was really mischievious and can't settle down .. *scroll down to see his pic :)
after that it was singspiration time again .. then helped the kids with their shoes .. one by one left .. i'm glad louise is becoming my friend !! .. haha .. oh wells cuz she always stick to her maid .. but now she'll occasionally look for me .. perry was the one and only one left !! .. then my mum was cleaning up .. before that she made him sit on the chair .. cuz he was too fidgity .. she "scolded" him and he sat .. short attention span !! .. he walked arnd later .. and mum was like "PERRY~" .. then me, jan & jan's cousin would be like "quickly go sit down!" .. then he sat on the floor but had to go back to the chair .. he's so adorable .. we gave him sweets and he was munching .. that's why he looks weird in the pic i took with him ..
after that brought him down to look for his parents .. and met them at the 2nd floor .. he was like clapping his hands .. so glad to see them .. went to meet dad who was covering aunty jane's duty .. then jackin was arnd .. mum talked to him .. uncle anthony was talking to us too .. at arnd 1.30 left to meet amanda & alethea at parkway .. we went jack's place for lunch .. yumms :) .. had a great time shopping .. was suppose to leave earlier but bcuz of the rain we were there till 5 ..
went isetan and bought a lace belt & jeans from joop .. then found my coux working there .. bought a pink top from her .. she gave us 25% discount instead of the usual 20% .. ahah .. after that went to help dad settle his phone line + changed my plan .. took a longg time la .. now my dad has a new line and i offically got my own number which is the current one i'm using .. coincidentally my parents & my no. have the same 2 front & back digits !! .. 98****55 .. so cool right .. anyway my plan changed to the ione plus student plan under my sis's name .. hees .. got free incoming .. haha anyone bored or needs a listening ear or wanna rant away can jux call me :) ..
after that bought another pearl belt .. then 2 umbrellas from giodano .. headed to grandma's place .. coux was there already .. watched tv and used his internet to chat with huiis & dora .. then skipped dinner and we went back early .. took bus all the way back and i fell asleep .. came home and wash up + snacked on chocolates & biscuits while watching pirates of the carribean .. then found out my laptop screen died on me .. was really frantic in the end i was using the screwed up win 98 desktop .. printed my french notes and chatted till 11 .. wasn't in a real good mood then .. manage to get the technical service no. for ibm before sleeping at arnd 12 .. the earliest so far ..
monday : 10th july ..
didn't had a good sleep .. i got up many times :( .. and 4+ i got an sms from emy .. she was shocked i replied .. it was storming then .. we msged for awhile before i fell asleep at 4.30 and woke up at 5.30 .. left house with sis and she told me that my mum actually woke up to watch the match la .. i was shocked .. haha ..
met vy at the interchange and went to sch .. harjeet's lesson only starts at 10 that's why she wasn't arnd .. the bus was FREEZING. me and vy were like trying to keep warm under our jackets .. met vin on the bus too .. he had pmkt presentation and was abit weird .. cuz i think his shirt too big + pants too small .. haha .. he so cute la .. suppose to meet his grp at 7.15 and reached at 7.40 .. that's why anyhow take pants and wear .. he don't even know if it was his sec sch's pants .. haha ..
anyway .. bought breakfast and was eating under the convention .. left for class arnd 7.55 .. then monsieur beniot wasn't arnd yet so hang arnd outside class .. emy came not long later .. went to class and he started .. got abit lost after that .. and in fact .. i was totally lost during the whole lesson la .. had to ask emy for help to translate .. i think my oral test die .. made stupid mistakes again .. i suddenly forgot how to reply .. after class we left .. i can't rmb if we did anything but came home .. then fell asleep in the bus .. had lunch and took 2 hours to settle my laptop problem .. the stupid person was irriating la .. called my mum to complain after hanging up ..
fell asleep again .. i think my sis said i slept for a long time .. till abt 8 .. then had dinner .. was using my laptop connected to my com screen .. did pmkt research .. then again went off at 11.30 .. didn't sleep till 12.30 though ..
tuesday : 11th july ..
got up earlyyyyy and reached school early too .. junwah was arnd .. emy came not long later .. ganting & guiluan weren't arnd so we went to pay our idare and went to collect wda notes .. after we came back they were arnd .. so we did our pmkt .. then headed for mwa lect .. tiredd .. all not listening sia .. had 1 hr break .. didn't feel like eating .. we basked in the sun at the study corner which had censor .. but it was like reactive to sound and me & emy were like quiet only when pple walked past and make alot of noise then the fan will work .. however we were in luck cuz there was wind !! .. haha ..
went to can 2 to look for ganting & guiluan in the end .. we bought $1 large ice cocktail which was like a full bowl .. can u imagine a $0.50 ice cocktail ?! .. maybe half a bowl .. ahaha .. after that was sitting outside LT waiting for mrs wong .. read book .. anyway she came not long later but forgot to bring her card .. so went back to get it .. then had a fast lect .. she zoOom everything .. me & shan shan were lost !! ..
oh .. i rmb that i was NICE .. i passed jere's notes to him thinking he'll use it cuz he didn't have notes .. but instead he kept it in his file =.=" .. how dumb can he get !! anyway whatever la .. i dun care ! went for mwa workshop .. did our workshop 5 template .. yayness .. went back after class .. tired tired .. came back and i think continue to do mwa/wda proj .. me & emy were doing the same thing la .. i sent my files over and she was editting .. then worked on pmkt .. after that got quite tired and slept arnd 12+ .. or was it 1+ .. i can't rmb ..
wednesday : 12th july ..
the peak of stress. i met peilin at arnd 7.30 .. then we took bus .. got caught in the jam at amk .. it's like really long la .. i slept and wake up still at same place .. anyway we reached school only at 9.30 la .. so the journey that day was like 2 hours =.=" .. the longest so far .. butt ached. hmms .. when i got to class .. only afew pple also .. she started at 10 .. went thru SQL tutorial .. but we weren't listening cuz we were installing our SQL servers ..
after that mwa tutorial .. she went thru tutorial and dismissed us .. had consultation with mrs koh for pmkt after that .. we were all so nervous .. then took down whatever she said .. after that met sy & wj .. was very blur la .. anyway i left my stuff with the rest and went to atrium with sy to help her with the payment for idare .. they were nice to walk back to canteen 1 with me .. met james, jy, lance .. then was sitting at the table with the rest .. wanted to collect blaw notes but don't have .. so bought pancakes for lunch and headed to study area behind 56 .. surprisingly shanshan's grp was there too ..
we did our research and updated whatever we had .. at arnd 3+ went for blaw with emy .. we were the only guai ones arnd besides dessy's grp .. was trying to keep ourselves awake .. then crapped .. missed the 52 met yg .. in the end i told emy to go off first .. called eunice to see if she wanted to go eat .. then met jiawen at the bus stop .. she jux finish her s&w .. saw jackson too and went to ask if he wanted to go .. somehow he ended up going .. then we jux crapped while waiting for darling eunice .. i thought yani was going but she was going on a date .. so it was jux the 3 of us ..
couldn't decide where to eat .. 52 came and headed to thomson plaza .. darling eunice was thinking of places to eat .. then i think they were "discussing" but in the end we went to bk .. had a great time chatting away with them .. :) i wish we could do it more often .. but so impossible .. time is always not on our side .. sighs .. went back arnd 7.30 .. eunice got a ride home from her parents .. 166 came and jackson left .. 132 came like a split second ltr .. stoned all the way home .. then got this indian guy ask me for directions to hougang mall .. came back and was working on the presentations .. pmkt then bmgt then pmkt again ..
wasn't in a good mood after that .. as u can see from my previous post .. i ended up "counselling" pple + had pple "counselling" me .. i'm really sorry if i had offended anyone in one way or another last night .. but was really very stressed .. at 2 couldn't take it and slept ..
thursday : 13th july ..
i woke up early this morning .. left house early too .. met peilin arnd 7.15 .. got caught in a jam again at amk !! .. i wonder why these days always got jam at amk .. reached school like 8.45 instead of the usual 8.30 .. then started writing the speech for bmgt .. went up to class and we were first ! .. was so nervous la .. i dunno what i was talking also .. i jux read from the slides and said "psychological" instead of "physiological" .. the teacher corrected me .. blahhx ..
after that we were doing pmkt speech and finalized our ppt cuz conclusion, recommendations were very little .. after that helped guiluan & junwah abit with their speech .. emy was practicing her speech !! so cute la .. all of us were stressed .. then went to print our ppt at the printing room .. i met him .. he looked worn out .. anyway the printer jammed up .. and we were late so rushed down to class .. the first grp was already presenting .. emy found out that we needed to submit our ppt so i went up to print ..
there was this nice yr 3 who lent me her laptop cuz i only brought up my thumbdrive + papers .. she even help me print la .. the other grp who was using the previous printer we used ended up printing whatever we jammed up .. anyway they were rude .. hmmphs .. waited quite sometime for everything to be printed .. then thanked her before rushing down .. the yr 3 girl was really nice and wished me luck :) ..
1st grp finish presenting when i went back .. did peer evaluation and collected everything .. 2nd grp presented .. then ours was 3rd grp .. emy started intro & micro .. she went fast !! .. but still good la .. then my macro .. omg la .. i took 6 mins =.=" in the end still never say alot of things sia .. *to my grp: sorry!!* .. then guiluan's segmentation .. after that was ganting who continued abt segmentation .. then junwah's trends .. omg la .. we were so anxious .. in the end quite disappointed cuz got alot of points someone never say and we even wrote it down + remind .. 20 mins jux passed so quickly =X .. wenling was counting the numbers of ERMs i had .. she said FIFTY-FIVE =.=" .. and there was like 3 erms in a row too .. i didn't even notice la ..
anyway mrs koh commented after all the grps presented .. she said emy presented well but too fast .. haha .. was dismissed and went back after that .. emy took cab with boon and i missed 52 again .. ended up taking 74 .. fell asleep as usual .. had lunch when i reached home .. then fell asleep till 7 .. skipped dinner but munched away again .. watched singapore idol .. jasmine still in :) ..
i'm still kinda "lost in my own world" now .. had a myriad of emotions/feelings again .. i suddenly dislike going to school .. school seems like the torture zone .. thought of skipping school tmr if not go out after that .. but i dunno where to go also and no one to go with too .. oh wells .. on the other hand .. i was thinking if i shld go straight home and sleep instead .. that's how boring my life is now .. and i have absolutely no mood to do tutorials .. i didn't do bmgt tutorial + i don't wanna do blaw tutorial .. i need some motivation now but maybe it might not work la ..
i was tearing abit jux now .. dunno why also .. jux felt like letting it all go .. there's still so many things ahead .. i hope i can cope with them .. yupps .. i'm going to blogg hopp for awhile .. then sleep early tonight .. maybe latest 12.30 ..
my horoscope for tmr ..
The Bottom Line
Transportation issues could slow you down now, so think up a smart backup plan.
In Detail
The biggest conflicts you experience today are centered around getting from point A to point B. There's a lot of negative energy around transportation right now, so be prepared for delays or detours. If you're driving, give yourself some extra time to make any appointments. Being late could set you back in many important ways -- so play it safe just in case. If you're taking some sort of public transportation, the people around you could affect your energy. Keep to yourself.
distant;
i won't disturb u anymore.
the pic i promised. jux perry & me !!
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