back to reality

it seems like when ever i'm in the "emotional" mood i'll tend to find out things i dun wanna know which would make me think more and get more "emotional" .. maybe i might be thinking too much .. but i really dunno also .. sighs ..

sometimes i ask myself is it really that hard to forgive and forget ? i still can rmb what i have been aiming for the past few years .. but it seems impossible .. i've finish reading my book and still vividly remember the quote from the Bible which said "love your enemies" .. i jux ponder on those words and reflected ..

my main "aim" was to be a blessing to others .. however i guess i was more like a jinx than a blessing .. i tend to screw things up in one way or another .. and for those who know me real well will know that if i don't like a person i'll show it .. and usually it'll be those brainless/stuck up pple or even those who get on my nerves when i'm in a bad mood .. but there's a difference cuz to some it'll be like a momentary hatred but for others .. i'll consider it as long-term unless a miracle happens .. i can give some examples but i shan't.

and due to many many things that happened since i've graduated from sec sch .. i've came to a conclusion that i'm feminist.

i remember jenn is feminist and i didn't understand why .. but now after the "experience" .. i would say that i can somewhat understand why already ..


this entry is kinda random and emotional. it doesn't really sound like me right? .. anyway dun worry pple. i'm fine .. i'll be back to my normal self real soon.

in the meantime, i shall try to accept pple for who they are even if i simply hate them.