breaking down.

my sister is so stubborn she totally make my blood boil! arghs .. i'm currently having some throbbing feeling on the left side of my head .. sighs ... it had been arnd since i came back .. anyway shall update abt my day ..

slept at 3.30 last night .. got up at 6 .. met vy at 7 .. waited for komethi to come .. she came arnd 7.10 .. took bus to sch .. was studying and had a bad headache which caused a puking "sensation" .. but didn't puke la .. reached sch at 8.30 .. met zj and went up with him .. found my sit and emy came .. poa ppr was ok .. everything was the same as past yr except for the numbers ..

i left the exam hall early arnd 10.45 .. cand & wq came out too .. we were talking till 11.05 when emy came out .. then left for town with her while cand went to job interview .. we reached town at 12 .. bought our tix for big momma house 2 and went in .. cinema 1/4 full .. we kept laughing and laughing cuz it was hilarious .. but not as hilarious as i thought it would be .. phones kept ringing again .. after the show .. met up with cand who was at macs waiting ..

went for brunch .. i was starvinggg .. cand treated us pastamania :) cuz she got the job .. lol .. me & emy had the same thing (i can't rmb the name) .. cand had creamy chicken .. and i got tiramisu :) .. although i still think the one at tcc is the best .. then we headed dwn to tanjong pagar via train ..

whilst waiting for the train to come ..










went to international plaza .. up 33th floor to kelly's services .. emy registered while they checked my name in their registry .. then emy did typing test .. had 2 mins prac before 5 mins actual .. and during the prac .. me & cand were distracting her .. thus she had funny spelling mistakes - customers spelt as costtumers (sth like that) .. then during the actual .. me & cand were trying our best not to distract her .. took pics of emy doing it ..












then results out - 47.6 words/min .. 13 errors/min .. 3 missing words .. 1 additional word .. we were laughing like mad abt it ... then dawn (the nice lady who was attending to us) gave us a name card .. we went to look for more job employment agencies .. found the directory and copied 6 down before heading up to 30th floor - GMP recruitment .. the lady who attended to use was very unfriendly .. filled in the forms and left ..

went down one floor to 29 - Niche recruitment .. the "door-bell" sounded like 7-11 .. filled in forms again and went down 8 levels to 21 - Manpower staffing .. the lady who attended to us was unfriendly too .. maybe she was busy .. then went down to 18 - Tact business services .. finally a friendly lady ! .. lastly was at 16 - Recruit services .. another "door bell" which kept ringing cuz it was tooo censored .. in all me & cand filled in 5 forms while emy filled in 6 ..

hopefully we get a job soon .. went back and was stoning the whole time .. just as i got home my head started to throb .. was talking to huifen & eudora online .. connection sucked .. till now still sucky .. my wan connection got prob .. sighs .. anyway was watching tv .. then helped alethea with her maths which got me all fumed up .. i could have jux gone mad with blood boiling in me .. simple english also can't understand .. arghs ..

my mum sided with her and told me not to scold her .. but she was so stubborn and simply gave that black face making me boil more .. i still can remember that was how my mother taught me .. she would scold me non-stop for making careless mistakes and even beat me/throw my books/throw pens .. alethea better thank God that my mum isn't teaching her ..

alrights it's getting rather late .. i think i'll get to sleep .. i'm very tired .. seriously .. i wish i can get out of the country to relax .. maybe quite impossible .. but i wouldn't mind a chalet to relieve myself like last time .. i totally forgot my worries & sadness during the days at the chalet .. i juz wanna be free & happy that's all .. that isn't difficult right ? ..

my dad has been asking me to get a job .. not like it's very easy to find one now .. as i've blogged i've already applied with 6 agencies for any job offer.. oh wells .. i really don't know what i'm doing also .. i feel mad looking for a job .. somehow .. i feel like resting during my hols .. but it's gonna be so boring .. maybe i'll juz do sth to sell .. i really don't know ..

my life is in a mess.

i'm drifting far away now .. won't someone pull me back? .. but i guess i'll rather drift away by myself. in a world of my own where i can be myself and not pretending to be myself when i'm not. leave me alone will u?
i can't bear to leave but staying will juz affect ur happiness and i want u to be happy. goodbye my friend- i won't forget those happy times we spent. lots of love from me.

[editted]i realised i have been skipping my meals. skipped breakfast but had brunch @ 2+ skipped dinner today too and i'm feeling hungry now .. sighs .. shall sleep on an empty stomach. [/editted]