fated to erase.

i guess this will be my kinda permanent blog for now .. juz went to my dx site .. there was a open letter to all .. a short summary of it .. dx's massive drive failure is unrecoverable as it was rather bad and no recent backups had been done .. thus the creator is considering to close dx .. and tentatively it'll be on 31st march ..

i didn't expect dx to fail so soon.. seriously speaking .. i've used dx for 3 yrs (started blogging during end of sec 2 but used dx from sec 3) .. it's one of the user-friendliest blog i've came across .. it had so many functions (password entries, locked blog, backup selection, even easier codes) .. i got very used to the "dx life" that i even gave up using lj.. which ended up to be my alternative blog when dx was under maintainance ..

during my 3 yrs + of blogging .. dx became a part of me .. it was like a norm to blog almost everyday .. my deepest secrets. my inner thoughts. everything was written in it .. sometimes i would wonder. if dx really fail one day when i am much older .. what would happen to my memories? .. i've actually thought of printing my entries out and keeping them with me .. silly thing to do i know .. but well .. it's just me ..

i have used the backup selection function as and when i had the time .. zipping all my entries, templates what-so-ever and saving them in both my d:// & portable hard disk .. however i just found out that the last time i backup was on 29th dec.. apparently i tried to backup afew times in jan .. however it couldn't work .. i took things for granted thinking that nothing would happen and i got my deserts.

when i read abt dx unable to recover files .. it dawned on me i hadn't backup my entries at all .. but looking in a different perspective .. maybe it's just fated for my entries to be erased .. some who have read my jan entries in dx may know abt my bad encounters at the start of this year .. those were the times i really pour out my feelings and had to lock my blog so that no one will know - except for my close friends who were there for me, encouraging me all the way ..

those entries really brought back bad memories .. even now .. i still think abt the whole incident. although i want to forget it .. but i can't .. it had caused so much problems that in fact i've kinda lost a good friend already .. (don't probe into who's the person; even if u think u know who it is .. don't ask me anything) ..

anyway .. i might jux have another blog which will be kept private and permit access to those close friends only .. at least that can replace my dx for this period of time cuz i have so much to say abt so many things which i can't do it publicly .. yeps .. don't get me wrong that i don't wish to share it .. but really .. my main objective of doing it is not to harm/hurt others ..

yepps .. guess this entry is rather long .. so i shan't blog abt my day .. will do it some other time .. till then.


btw. i might not make sense .. cuz there's so many things running thru my mind and i don't know how to put it properly ..